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If you could introduce one of your characters to any character from another book, who would it be and why?
I would love to introduce my demon, Kali, to Captain Howdy/Pazuzu from The Exorcist. Captain Howdy would demolish Kali, not physically, but psychically and emotionally. Kali thinks she’s all-powerful and a real baddie. But she’s not the kind of demon we’re familiar with from hell or other possession stories. She’s softer than that and capable of human emotion: empathy, love, and desire. She likes Connie, her host, and she falls in love with a man. Ultimately, like Pinocchio, she wants to be human. Captain Howdy would mock her for that, mercilessly.
What’s one thing that readers would be surprised to find out about you?
I am a big fan of schlocky reality television: Love Is Blind; The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives; The Ultimatum. That kind of thing. Humans never cease to shock and amaze me and I always find something I can use for my characters as well. The participants say and do things I would never think of.
Which character have you enjoyed getting to know while writing DEAR CONNIE?
Kali! The book started off first person from the point of view of Connie. It was her story and dramatized her struggle to control Kali. But that wasn’t quite right. Honestly, it was a little bland. Then I switched it to third-person, but still closely following Connie. That opened up Kali a bit, as I played with narrative distance. But then Kali started to become more interesting. I tried a draft in her voice, with a mixture of first and second person, so that she’s speaking directly to Connie at times. Through that experiment, I discovered that Kali was the most interesting and dynamic character, with desires and a will that were in direct conflict with Connie. Plus, she’s much funnier than Connie ever was.
What was the single worst distraction that kept you from writing this book?
Considering the book in its final form took fifteen years, there were many distractions. I wrote another book and a short story collection during that time. Many major life events occurred: Both my parents died; I got divorced; and I moved to Minnesota for a new job. So there wasn’t one thing, but many. Now, I have a wonderfully boring daily routine that allows me the solitude and peace of mind to write. My biggest obstacles are my own brain and my cats, who lie across my keyboard literally preventing me from typing and demanding my undivided attention.
Can you tell us when you started DEAR CONNIE, how that came about?
I began Dear Connie way back in 2010 as the follow-up novel for my first book Brains: A Zombie Memoir. The inspiration goes even further back, however. When I was way too young, under ten, my older sister had a sleepover, and I snuck downstairs and watched The Exorcist with the teenagers. I was explicitly told not to, but no one noticed me, or, if they did, I was ignored. The movie terrified and thrilled me. Every night I prayed that the devil wouldn’t take me and opened my Bible to Psalm 23 for protection. I woke up in the wee hours and crawled into my mom’s bed, until she told me I couldn’t anymore. That experience kickstarted a lifelong love of horror and a particular affinity for possession stories. I’ve been chasing that high ever since, and with Dear Connie, I was finally able to catch it.
TEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT DEAR CONNIE.
- 1. Kali was originally called Lilith (for something like fourteen years!), but then my agent and I noticed a rush of Liliths on the market and I changed her name to Kali. Even though I miss Lilith, the name change altered her personality in interesting ways. She became more Southern, because I pronounced her name like Kaylee (in my head) and not like the Hindu Goddess.
- 2. The book is in second-person point-of-view, with Kali telling Connie the story of their life together.
- 3. The book is set in rural Arkansas where I lived for seven years, on a lake very much like Devil’s Lake. Many of the places are real places (Toad Suck Bucks; Bear’s Den Pizza; Cadron Creek; Duck Lake).
- 4. The cover is an original painting by the artist Samantha Paradise. We brainstormed on the concept and she documented the process. I love it so much that the painting is hanging in my office.
- 5. Connie’s twin brother Matt was a late development. Initially, her partner-in-crime was Malcom, her best friend since grade school. But I liked the twinning aspect of Connie and Matt and Connie and Kali. It makes the book more family-oriented.
- 6. The voice actor, Carly Robins, did a phenomenal job on the audio. I reached out to her and she loved working on the book, calling Kali and the narrative “unhinged.” And I love that. It should be my next pull quote!
- 7. Kali is funny and snarky. She’s a bit of a mean girl (mean ghoul, I should say). But I came to care for her and root for her, more than I initially did for Connie. I hope that doesn’t say something bad about me.
- 8. T.J., the love interest, was inspired by people from my own life, but also the Brad Pitt character in Thelma and Louise and Jason Stackhouse in True Blood. Gorgeous rapscallions, all of them.
- 9. In addition to the fun and gore, Dear Connie is about family, desire, and, in a strange way, fertility and parenthood.
- 10. I wrote three different endings before deciding on the one I have now. I won’t give any spoilers though! But I finally got it right.
BURGER KING! Proud to say I quickly moved up from the burger board to cash register. This was in the eighties. The uniform was both corduroy and polyester.
What is your most memorable travel experience?
After I graduated high school, I lived in a VW Microbus for six months. We traveled from the east coast to California, living like hippies (even though we were punks). I wrote a book about it called Exit 18W. You can read excerpts from the book on my website—and hopefully it will be published someday.
When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
I love you, dear reader.
What do you usually think about right before falling asleep?
I make a conscious effort to think about the book I’m writing. I’m a firm believer in the power of the subconscious and it’s my hope that my brain will work on the narrative while I’m asleep. Sometimes it works, at least I like to believe it does.
Most horrifying dream you have ever had?
I went through a period of sleep paralysis when I lived in Arkansas. I’d be lying in bed in the morning trying to wake up while a skeleton carrying a scythe hung at the end of my bed, threatening me with the blade. I’d try and wake up and couldn’t. I’d scream but only in my dream. It was so vivid. The skeleton never got me though!
What is one unique thing are you afraid of?
I’m afraid of demons, of course, and other things that go bump in the night. I’m also oddly afraid of vomit. Not when I’m sick, but when someone else is. There’s even a word for it: emetophobia. It used to be so bad that I was afraid to go into public bathrooms. Even if I just heard someone throw up, I’d have all the classic symptoms of fear: racing heartbeat, flood of chemicals, anxiety. I don’t know why I have this or where it comes from, but since the advent of the internet I know I’m not the only one. There’s some solace in that. Emetophobics unite!
What follows is part possession story, part crime novel, and full extremely dysfunctional love triangle, with plenty of dark humor, body horror, and gore along the way. At its center is what Publishers Weekly calls the “twisty battle of wills” between Connie and Kali over who gets to control the body they both inhabit, and, as a result, who wins the man.
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